Wednesday, October 24, 2007

free piano

It's time to renew my drivers licence. I got a form in the mail to fill out and send back with a check so it will all be taken care of for another few years. There is a little box to check if I want to donate my organs. If I put a mark on it they will print a pink dot on my licence and register me as a donor. They used to just give you a little sticker to apply yourself.

I will have them put the dot on my licence. I would like for them to print on the card, "Organs donated under protest." See I strongly believe that the donor's family should get paid, if they wish, when a loved one's body parts are passed on to another.

Yes, I can hear you screaming, "That would lead to the SELLING of organs!" Guess what? Body parts are being sold every day. If you don't believe this trot on down to the local hospital and tell them you want a new heart but you don't want to pay any money for the operation cause you don't want your insurance premium to go up!

When organs are transplanted the doctor is usually paid to preform the operation. The nursers are compensated for their time. The hospital gets remuneration for providing the OR, the ICU, the lights, the bed, the bad food and the reams of paper used to keep track of every pill, band-aid and Kleenex the patient is given. The hospital staff, from the CEO at the top, down to the person who takes out the garbage, all get big salaries or small wages. The insurance company makes money on the deal, or there would not be a "deal". They write the policies to their own advantage. The local, state and federal governments always get a piece of the action whenever large amounts of money change hands. And we are talking about very large amounts of money.

Perhaps the greatest beneficiaries are the pharmaceutical companies. When ever a major organ is transplanted the drug suppliers are guaranteed a "preferred" customer for life. Transplant recipients are generally required to take expensive anti-rejection drugs for the rest of their lives. And because those drugs weaken the immune system they also often need other drugs to fight infection and disease. So the "sale" of organs is a big business.

Fortunately there is a system in place to insure that the allocating of donated organs is fair. Hopefully the system works. Sometimes it is abused.

Lets look at what often goes on now. On one end we have a young person who has taken care of their body with exercise and a good diet, no abuse of drugs or alcohol. They have a good healthily life style and a body that is physically fit. Then they suddenly die in an accident maybe caused by a drunk driver. On the other end there may be a wealthy businessman, athlete, actor or rock star that has abused substances for their entire adult life. Their liver's been pickled, their lungs resemble those of a coal miner and their heart needs servicing by Roto-Rooter. They get to go on living in their mansions with their illegal immigrant domestic staff. The donor's family gets a thank you note. Is that right?

Those recipients who are able to pay big money for their used parts should be made to pay. The money could go into a fund out of which donor's families are paid. There would be no direct link between donor and recipient. This might add motivation to abuse the system but their is plenty of motivation already. Either the system works or it doesn't. Paying for the organ will not change the fact that the system for preventing abuse needs to be monitored closely and set up in a way that insures fairness to all. There is a bigger issue here, that of who gets good medical care in the first place. Everyone or just those can pay the exorbitant cost for the "finest health care in the world."

As it is now everyone gets paid except those who may need it the most. A family that has lost a bread winner and is now deeply in debt because of medical and funeral expenses.

OWL

Oct. 24, 2007

Thursday, October 18, 2007

bryan jones

Last night at the meeting a fellow came in from San Jose to tell us his story. D. related to us how his father started getting him drunk when he was seven years old. His father thought is was funny to watch him stumble around. The rest of his story followed a pattern. Boys school, getting busted for being drunk on duty in the navy, and repeated arrest for drunk driving. The judge told him, "Some day you are going to kill somebody." In 1982 coming home from Reno, Nevada someday came. He woke up in a hospital and was told that he had killed a young man and the young mans infant son in a head-on collision just outside of Carson City.

"Just outside of Carson City a young man and his son killed by a drunk driver in a head-on collision." This was twenty-five years ago but the story was hauntingly familiar. I tried to remember. In '82 I would have been twenty-six. Could it be the same story? There are things that stick in your memory and you never forget where you were and what you were doing when you heard the news. I remember that night clearly. The phone hanging on the kitchen wall rang and I answered it. The woman asked for Carla, the young lady I was living with at the time. It sounded like bad news. Women often seem to say "Oh, no!" and "Oh my god!", so I didn't think much about it. When Carla hung up she told me her brother Bryan Jones and his only son had been killed by a drunk driver in a head on collision just out side of Carson City."

Just a coincidence I told myself. Route 395 is a very busy highway. Lots of people have been killed there over the years. Just the same I planned to ask the speaker about it after the meeting. I didn't have to wait.

In AA they stress the importance of making amends for the harm you have caused. D. went on to tell us that the hardest thing he had to do was to face the young man's wife, Mrs. Jones, and tell her he was sorry. He was not able to do this until many years after the accident.

Bryan was just twenty-three, the youngest of six children. The product of a rough childhood he had a reputation for going out to bars and getting into fights. Then he met Rose. He settled down, straightened up and got a good job. He was commuting two hours to work and back everyday. He wanted to do the right thing for his wife and child. His family was very proud of him. His mother was overjoyed that she finally had a grandchild.

The memories flooded back. His death had devastated his family. The grief and anger and sadness of that time welled up within me. I started crying. Around the room other people were talking and laughing. I wanted to scream. I was shaking. They did not understand the terrible consequences of this man actions.

In AA we often hear about how people have ruined their lives and the lives of others. But it is hard grasp the reality of what is being said. The stories get repetitive and begin to seem like so many words, detached from any substance. We blanket ourselves in numbness to keep from facing the ugliness of our own lives.

When I got the chance to speak I let D. and the others in the room know how this man's life had affected mine. I was angry. I was sad. I was upset. Mostly I was ashamed of myself for ever getting behind the wheel drunk. After the meeting D. came up to me looking for forgiveness. I offered him my hand and he held on to it. There was a look of desperation in his eyes. Forgiveness is not mine to give.

I thanked him for telling his story.

OWL

Oct. 18, 2007

Friday, October 5, 2007

bullseye

Ricky Inouye is dead.

At the meeting C. said, "The Ninth Circuit Court of Appeals has ruled that forcing someone to participate in an AA program is unconstitutional." The word "unconstitutional" always gets my attention. It is very often misused. When I got home I did my research. Google listed several headlines that stated essentially the same thing as C. had.

Mr. Inouye who had an addiction to methamphetamine was on parole for drug related crimes. His parole officer Mark Nanamori ordered him to attend meetings of Narcotics Anonymous. Inouye, a Buddhist, objected to the religious nature of the program and refused to attend the meetings. Partly for that reason he was sent back to prison. He filed suit claiming that his constitution right to freedom of religion had been violated and naming the city and county of Honolulu, Mark Nanamori and others as defendants. Inouye died in custody and his son Zenn Inouye carried on the suit in his behalf.

Nanamori did not dispute that he had violated Inouye's constitutional rights but claimed he was immune to liability because he was acting as an agent of the state. Citing several previous cases the Court ruled that Nanamori should have known he was acting in violation of the plaintiffs rights and therefore could be held liable for his actions.

A quote from the opinion issued by the court, "In this case, it is essentially uncontested that requiring a parolee to attend religion-based treatment programs violates the First Amendment." This is an important point. The Ninth District Circuit Court of Appeals did not rule that forced attendance in AA/NA programs was unconstitutional, that was an established point of law. They ruled that Ricky Inouye could sue his parole officer for his actions.

At the meeting C. repeatedly said "This guy chose death rather than life!" I could not find anywhere the cause of death for Ricky Inouye. So whether or not his death was related to his refusal to participate in a program I don't know. I do know this, Ricky Inouye fought for the rights granted him by the Constitution of the United States of America and the Bill of Rights. It might have been wiser for him to stop fighting and attend the program as his parole officer had wanted. But this America! The rights many people have given their lives for are ours to do with as we wish. If Ricky Inouye chose death rather than life that was his right.

Ricky Inouye may not have needed protection from a government trying to impose religious beliefs on him, but it is because of people like him, demanding their damned right because it is their damned right, that you and I have the freedom to speak the truth, write blogs like this one, gather in groups, ask the government to do the right thing and worship when and where and whatever God we choose!

The opinion of the court:

http://www.ca9.uscourts.gov/ca9/newopinions.nsf/6FA63303852632AC8825734F0059D078/$file/0615474.pdf

and the first amendment:

http://www.law.cornell.edu/constitution/constitution.billofrights.html

OWL

Oct. 5, 2007

Thursday, October 4, 2007

Ursa Minor

I was driving up Geary St. when I saw a banner in front of the Weinstein Gallery. "Picasso, Dali, Miró".

It was the end of August and I was on vacation. Misses B. had already taken her vacation and had gone to Orange County to see the latest addition to her extended family, a grandson, named after her late husband Frank. I was on my own and for the first time in several years I had gone out of town by myself. Constant calls from clients needing immediate attention on my first day off had helped to convince my loving wife that leaving the area was the only way that I would get any real relaxation.

I had packed an overnight bag and drove off with only a vague idea of where I was going or what I was going to do when I got there. Joan Miró is my favorite artist. Parking in San Francisco is a nightmare. I went round the block and into one of the monstrously expensive parking garages. Walking back down the street I looked into the gallery window and saw "Women Encircled by the Flight of a Bird". During his long artistic career Joan Miró had painted in a variety of styles, the prints from around 1960 contain a symbolism that speaks to my soul. The colors of his palette at that time are the colors of my emotions. The nice young man at the counter asked me if I was interested in anything specific and pointed to where some of Miró's work was on display. He told me to go ahead and look around.

Nothing that I saw was as interesting as the print in the window that was roped off. Hesitantly I asked I the young lady who worked there if I could get a closer look. She took me into the window and explained the history of the piece and let me examine it closely. And she told me the gallery had other pieces from the same collection of prints "Constellations." She went and got the key to another section of the gallery while I used the rest room. We went up the street and into another display room. I saw wonderful art pieces while learning fascinating information about how they where created. Patricia took the time to show me all of the pieces by Miró they had on display and when I showed interest in and knowledge about the artist she put on her little white gloves and pulled out the entire set of prints of "Constellations". We spent about an hour going over them, discussing their symbolism, admiring the colors and pointing out to one another various subtle images in the prints.

The rest of the time I spent in San Francisco was fun, I went to Chinatown and ate dried squid, drove over to Haight-Ashbury and bought the Misses a tie-dyed t-shirt (she made me do it), picked up some old comics for DW and found a nice little motel in the wrong part of town. The Phoenix a couple blocks up from Market St. looks rather questionable from the outside, the blank cinderblock walls are a drab green and the parking lot faces a street that needs swept. But the courtyard is lush with exotic plants and full of abstract art. The rooms, though the paint is rather gaudy, are clean and comfortable. The next day I had trouble finding the museum and a great deal of difficulty getting onto the bay bridge. At the other art galleries I visited I politely was shown a few pieces and then shown the door.

And I saw things there that were quite disturbing. A man and woman about my age picking up every thing they owned and moving on after sleeping on the sidewalk all night. A reminder of where I could be if I just tried a little harder. I get put out when I come in the house and it is too chilly because someone left the air conditioning running. I don't get into the big city much; my little trip helped me put my life into perspective.

Because the Misses wasn’t with me I got to do the things I was interested in. Little D. would have drug me from shop to shop, carrying bags full of cheap Chinese imports and souvenirs of the free love movement. We would have dined on something less exotic (less fishy). And I never would have found the Phoenix with her in tow, we would have drove right by.

One day in the city was enough! The one way streets, the five dollars in quarters needed for an hours parking (if you can find a spot), the panhandlers who can spot a tourist six block away and the bicyclist who come out of nowhere when you are about to make a right turn all got on my nerves. But after a few hours of driving in competition with taxi drivers on a mission the "rush hour" traffic in our little town no longer seems at all frustrating.

I owe misses B. a trip to Baghdad-By-The-Bay.

Here boy!

Sigmund Freud chose the term "Oedipus complex" to denote a condition in which a boy loves his mother and hates his father. This gives a lot of people the mistaken impression that the play Oedipus Rex or Oedipus the King by the Greek playwright Sophocles is about a man who hated his father and loved his mother.

It was foretold that the son of King Laius would kill his father and marry his mother. So the young Oedipus was sent away by his mother Jocasta to be left for dead in the forest. Of course we learned from Snow White that unwanted children need to be dealt with directly, underlings cannot be trusted with such delicate tasks. Oedipus was handed off to King Polybus who with his wife Merope raised the boy as his own. When Oedipus became a man he to consulted an oracle. Bad move as they say. He was told that he would kill his father and defile his mothers bed. So he ran away from home. On the road one night he ran into a group of men, an argument ensued and one of them was killed. Arriving in Thebes soon afterward our hero marries the recently widowed queen Jocasta.

Twenty years later the truth comes out, the man he had killed beside the road was his real father. Jocasta hung herself and Oedipus poked his eyes out with the pin of her golden brooch.

Sophecles' play is about running away from fate. Or more importantly running away from yourself. The fruitless attempt to escape from who you are by changing the external world.

People often miss the point.

OWL

Oct. 4, 2007

Saturday, September 22, 2007

room to move

It was September, 1972, the first day of school, my junior year at Livingston High. U. S. History was a required subject. Our instructor Mr. C. introduced himself and gave us a little of his own personal history. This was to be his first year of teaching. Previously he had been a major league ball player with the Cleveland Indians. He made no attempt to deny that he had been hired as an instructor because he could also coach baseball. Or maybe it was the other way around, he had been given the coaching position because he could also teach. Anyway some of the other boys in class were awe struck and after school they would bring in various bits of sporting equipment to be autographed or blessed.

I had never been into sports and had a different opinion about the merits being a professional athlete. I immediately began to form preconceived notions about this young mans ability to teach. Back then preconceived ideas were quite popular, unlike the enlightened times we live in today. I knew I was being prejudicial and made up my mind to give him a fair chance. I listened to his lectures, read the assigned chapters and took the test each week. But there was a problem. About six weeks into the semester he comes up to my desk one day.

"We need to talk. You haven't been turning in your homework."

I think I'd turned in one to two papers at the beginning of the year. The homework consisted writing out the answers to the questions at the end of each chapter. He went on.

"But every week you get an A on the test. I think you may be finding the assignments a bit boring."

I concurred. I also hated homework and had trouble with authority, but I didn't see the need to elaborate. United States History happened to be an easy subject for me. I had an unfair advantage because I had been born and raised in that country. Mr. C went on to explain that it was okay with him if I didn't turn in the papers, he could understand my not wanting to do it. I realized for the first time that I had something in common with "jocks". He told me that he needed to get some work out of me in order to justifying giving me a passing grade. He proposed that I did some outside reading and turn in book reports on what I'd read. He wanted to know if that proposal was acceptable.

"OK by me." I would do just about anything to get out of homework and I did have some small concern about keeping up the appearance that I was trying to get good grades.

The deal was that I could read anything I wanted as long as it had to do with U.S. history. He suggested I start with The Jungle, Upton Sinclair's scathing expose of the abuses in the meat packing industry in Chicago in the early twentieth century. It's a very good read and a real eye opener. It shows very clearly why we have the FDA and labor unions. When I turned in my report on it Mr. C. had some questions, he wanted to be sure I was aware of the very strong socialist message in the later part of the book. It would of been hard to miss.

But it was from the other books I read that year that I really learned. They were not recitations of names and dates. Nothing about who was president when or what country was our enemy in 1832. They were about the day to day lives of pioneers and Indians in the eastern half of the U.S. What life was like for people before history was made. History books will tell you when the cotton gin was invented and who patented the first sewing machine. They don't go into detail about the endless struggle to survive that prompted their development. Or the conditions and wild life that early settlers found. Everyone knows about the plains buffalo, once living in large herds numbering in the millions on the great plains. Almost no one knows about the forest buffalo, a solitary creature living in the woods of Kentucky among blue gum trees eight feet in diameter, now extinct.

And the only thing anyone knew about the Indians was what we saw in the movies. They were a problem for the cavalry, uncivilized heathens that needed to be removed to make way for progress. But at this time, right after the "hip" movement, the rejection of modern commercialism and a growing desire to return to the land and a simpler time, the Indians were getting a new reputation. One of a peaceful people living in harmony with their environment. Both conceptions were equally naive.

My junior year in high school I saw history from a different angle, I earned straight A's in Mr. C.'s class and learned a valuable lesson about prejudging people. This former ball player saw an opportunity to let me learn and he went out of his way to make it happen.

Thank you, Mr. C.

OWL

Sept. 22, 2007

Friday, September 21, 2007

Thank you, Mister Neuman

There is a commercial that has been running quite a lot on television recently. The animated style is similar to that used in a popular computer game that allows the user to simulate the building of a city. It shows bulldozers digging a pit into the earth and loading ore onto trucks. The trucks carry raw material to a processing plant where it is refined and shaped into fuel rods. Waste is shown in a barely noticeable ghost-like image moving off to one side into a mysterious cylindrical container. The fuel rods are placed into a reactor, the reactor slides into place near a city and the electricity generated goes onto the power grid. The wires are followed along to a night club where a young couple dance amid flashing lights to the catchy tune played throughout the ad.

The message conveyed is very clear. The company responsible for this forty-five second spot is saying "We'll dig this stuff up, haul, refine it, process it, put it into our reactor and turn it into electrical power. You get to dance! What happens after that does not matter. You don't even need to think about it. The thousands of tons of deadly waste, that will be highly radioactive for ten thousand years, left over after the power is generated are not enough of a concern to even be mentioned."

There is a growing effort in this country to start building nuclear power plants again. The powers that wish to be wisely realize that the people of my generation, the baby boomers, will never allow another reactor to be built. So they are targeting their message to those who are not old enough to remember the broken promises offered in the last round of, "Cheap, safe, clean nuclear power!" This is very troubling. I can understand why these corporations want to go nuclear. Whenever you can generate megawatts and then sell it without having to clean up after yourself the profit potential is enormous. And that is the way it has been with the nuclear power industry. Fifty years ago permits were issued and plants were built. The industry and the federal government shook hands and told the masses, "We will work together to find a way to permanently dispose of the waste."

A half century later and not one ounce of the stuff has been moved to a "permanent" resting place. Each day that passes makes it even more unlikely that a place to dump the debris will ever be found. More and more state and local governments are passing laws prohibiting the permanent, or even temporary, storage of radioactive waste in their respective jurisdictions. Many are passing laws banning the transport of such waste through their cities and states. The consumer and environmental protection groups that will fight in court against the movement and disposal of radioactive waste are getting stronger and more numerous every year. Meanwhile the containers in which this deadly material is now stored are deteriorating. Ever increasing the likelihood of the accidental release of glowing green ooze.

But here is the scary part. The people who spent millions to make this commercial and even more millions to run it no doubt hired experts to do studies and focus groups and consumer testing to find the best way to convince the younger generation that nuclear power is safe and clean and necessary. And what image did they come up with?

Disco dancing.

OWL

Sept, 21 2007

Stupidity in America bonus rant- The plan is that once they place this stuff deep into the ground in some geologically stable area they will seal it off and post warning signs for future generations to stay away. They want to put up warnings of danger in every known language, barbed wire, chain link fences, concrete and steel barriers, death's head and radioactive symbols and whatever else they can come up with to discourage people from poking around. They might as well mark it with big red "X" and a sign that says "Dig here!"

owl

On Line

When the most important developments in human history are listed certain things come up again and again. Language, the wheel, the computer and decaf always come at the top of the list. Mechanization, the pulley, pointy sticks and sharpened rocks are often included. The automobile, telecommunications and plastic are considered by some to be crucial to modern life. Paper played a major role in the spread of civilization but with everything on microchip now paper will soon be something you only find in restrooms. Aggressive types will point out gunpowder as the number one invention of all time. Pessimists focus on the threat of annihilation posed by the unleashing of atomic energy.

I like string. No one invented it. Vines, sinew and other sting like objects are found throughout the natural world and have been used by man from the earliest of times. But sometime before the beginning of human history someone figured out that plant or animal fibers could be twisted together into string and the way we interact with our world was fundamentally changed forever. The process is simple. Hair, wool, cotton or other fibers are twisted between the fingers or rolled between the palm of the hand and the thigh and out comes an incredibly strong and versatile material. Its length is limited only by the amount of time and material you have. A chain is only as strong as its weakest link, a string can be hundreds of times stronger than its strongest fiber.

Having a ready supply of string made possible many of the innovations that led to the creation of civilization. Humans were suddenly able to carry more, build more, kill more and exploit their environment more efficiently. String allowed primitive people to sew animal skins into clothing, bundle items together and carry more. Their huts were bound with string, many tools such as hand axes and hammers were made stronger with string. New weapons like the bow and arrow and the sling were made possible with string. Old weapons, like the spear, were improved. String was fashioned into traps by early hunters and into nets by fishermen. The use of string allowed men to harness the power of the wind to sail across vast stretches of water and to harness animals to plow fields and bear burdens. The great monuments of antiquity, Stonehenge, the Pyramids and the Maoi of Easter Island were made possible because hundreds of people were able to work together pulling one stone. String figures, various designs made by manipulating a loop of sting, were a very early form of symbolic representation and were used for intertribal communication well into the twentieth century. String games, like the familiar "cats cradle", have been traced back in time thousands of years.

String, thread, twine, rope, cord, wire, cable, line and yarn are variations of twisted fibers and they permeate our world. What are you wearing? You might have shoes made of leather but I bet everything else, shirt, skirt, pants, panties, briefs etc. were woven, knit or crocheted from thread. Before the industrial revolution in the nineteenth century most woman spent more time spinning, weaving and sewing than they did with all other tasks combined! Even in wealthy households with many servants or slaves the matron would devote much of her day to this all important task. Penelope spun and wove by day and unraveled her work by night. With this ruse she was able to forestall her many avid suitors for ten years, a testament to how time consuming the process can be. The distaff, a board or hook for holding unspun wool, was symbolic for women's work and the term "distaff" was synonymous with "female". The word is rarely used these days because no one knows what it refers to. Even I, when researching this piece, found out that I was unclear on what exactly the distaff was. I had it confused with the spindle, a tool for spinning.

The fan belt that keeps your car from over heating, the electrical cord that powers the computer you are now using, the floss that cleans your teeth and the steel cable which hoisted the roof beams of your house were all made of twisted fibers. The seat belt which may one day save your life, the fiberglass and carbon composites of which many things, including airplanes, are now made and the flag that waves over the courthouse and proclaims our freedom are all based on the same technology. Although super glue or staples are being used in its place silk thread is still standard equipment in emergency rooms around the world.

Spinning is rarely done by hand these days except by a few hobbyist, historical reenactors or makers of trendy and expensive hand crafted clothing. It is not because spinning has become an anachronism not relevant to modern life. But rather because of the great amount of it that has to be done. The hundreds of miles of thread that goes in to our carpets and draperies is all created on automated equipment. Indeed it was the need for vast quantities of thread that largely drove the industrial revolution. Some of the earliest mechanized factories, many of them on the east coast of the United States, were those that spun thread and wove it into cloth. The fight over the profits from this budding industry was one of the major factors that led to the Civil War.

Agriculture, architecture, transportation, animal husbandry, communications, economics, fashion, music and just about every other aspect of our lives owe much of their existence to a few fibers twisted together between the fingers of an ancient ancestor.

Think about that the next time a button pops off.

OWL

Sept. 21, 2007

Sunday, September 16, 2007

Stonehenge

The local weather web site says the current temperature is 80 degrees Fahrenheit, wind out of the southwest with gusts of 5 mph, cloud cover 2% and very slight chance of rain. Nice day? No, not for me. It has cooled off a lot from the temperatures in the nineties a week ago. After the 100 plus days of mid summer 80 feels quite cool. The fall equinox is coming up. The days or at least the hours of sunlight are getting shorter.

I always get depressed when summer turns to fall and even more depressed when fall turns to winter. I hate getting up and going to work in the dark. And detest coming home in the dark. I get cold very easily, whether it is due to low metabolism or lack of body fat I don't know. Often the only time I feel really warm in the winter is when I am soaking in a hot bath. But I can't stay in the tub all day.

I get depressed because I feel like another summer has come and gone and I have wasted it. I tend to focus to much on what I haven't done. The things I haven't accomplished.

For the most part the things that I set out to do this summer I have a done. My garden produced more vegetables than I can eat or even give away. The flowers this year were bountiful. My marriage is stronger and my relationship with my wife is better than ever. I have let my artistic side out and my drawing is much more free. My writing is getting better though I still have a hard writing about my day to day life and my emotions. This post seems wooden and stilted. I do much better when I'm ranting about the ill logic and silliness of the society in which we live.

Truth is I don't like examining my emotions or making them public. I'd much rather feel sorry for myself and not ask why. And definitely not share my unhappiness or fear with anyone. And not do anything to change it.

I'm learning to let the world in. And let the frightened little boy out.

Thanks for listening.

OWL

Sept. 16, 2007

Monday, September 3, 2007

SPQR

Deodorants, perfumes, antiseptics and air fresheners are contributing to the decline of western civilization.

Interesting thesis but can I make the argument to back it up?

In order to sell these products Proctor and Gamble, Reckitt Benckiser, S. C. Johnson & Son and other major corporations play on peoples subconscious fears. Especially the fear of being socially unacceptable. Is your breath bad? Does your house smell? Got B.O? These companies spend billions trying to convince us that not only do we have such problems but that such things are unnatural, unhealthy and offensive. And your friends won't tell you. That is if someone as disgusting as yourself has friends.

We have been taught from a very early age that odor is a bad word. If it smells it has gone bad. It needs to be thrown out, disinfected or at least covered up. And they have the products to do it. Deodorant for the underarms, mouthwash for the breath, air fresheners for the house, scented detergent for the laundry, air filters, ionisers, perfumes, colognes, breath mints, scented oils, scented candles and disinfectants with a fresh clean scent.

Never mind that what is called for is merely soap and water, clean air and sunshine. Besides where do you get clean air these days, it doesn't come in a can. Even if it smells fine to you someone else may be able to detect some foul emanation. So you best use something just in case.

These products work in several ways. They can neutralize the odor as stated in the commercial, cover up the smell with something stronger or deaden your sense of smell. Those products which neutralize odor often have the side effect of deadening your olfactory nerves and the cover ups cause olfactory fatigue.

Bombarded by harsh chemicals and artificial fragrances all day the chef goes into the kitchen without one of the essential tools of good cooking. A keen sense of smell. Unable to use the nose cook relies on taste.

Of course, as we learned in grammar school, taste buds distinguish only four favors. Sweet, salty, sour and bitter. Sugar and salt are used to give flavor to food stuffs that are perceived to be bland. Or to meals that really are bland. Hardly matters because that is all the family can discern anyway. Loaded up with sugar and salt menus become monotonous. Lacking variety dinner taste like lunch, dessert and breakfast are as one. Meal time becomes a chore, a necessary routine, something to be gotten through quickly so we can all get back to our separate corners and our electronic friends. No one lingers at the table. Dinner conversation becomes a thing of the past, only seen in old movies or corny "family oriented" sit-coms. Eating while standing at the counter becomes acceptable, Taco Bell for breakfast starts to seem like a good idea. Eating while driving, which doesn't let you concentrate on driving or enjoy your meal, is common even though it interferes with "texting". Young people turn to premarital sex or experimentation with street drugs and alcohol to replace the feelings of connectedness and pleasure that are missing at mealtime.

Studies have shown that children who sit at the table with their parents during dinner get better grades in school and have fewer social problems than those who don't. Couples that share their thoughts and feelings at supper are less likely to break up. Families that eat together stay together. For many of us the evening gathering to break bread is the only time the whole family is together on a regular basis. Take that away and the fabric of the nuclear family starts to unravel.

As we are often reminded by conservatives the family is the essential building block of our society. (Yep they get it right sometimes but then so do the democrats.) Broken homes lead to broken laws and social disarray.

Turning and turning in the widening gyre
The falcon cannot hear the falconer;
Things fall apart; the centre cannot hold;
Mere anarchy is loosed upon the world,

W.B. Yeats - The Second Coming


OWL

Sept. 4, 2007

Friday, August 31, 2007

freedom of speech impediment

I recently wrote a letter detailing a few of my objections to the way George W. is running the country. Someone had sent me an e-mail basically stating that anyone who had a job and enough to eat and doesn't agree with W's policies is "spoiled and ungrateful". And it erroneously attributed the writing to someone I admire. A response was wanting.

I have avoided criticizing the prez here because that kind of thing can found all over the media and political blogs are so passe. Besides we don't have the time. But there is one thing that really drives me nuts about the upside down M and it has not gotten the attention that it deserves. Especially during the 2004 election.

"It's your money."
"The American people know best how to spend their own money."
"I think it is time for the government to get its hand out of your pocket."

This kind of small government big promise mantra got the stunted tree elected in 2000. Not a bad idea really. High taxes are bad for the economy and put a burden on those of us that don't collect and trade baseball players as a hobby. But fairy-god-mother doesn't deliver in my neighborhood any more.

So bonsai gets himself elected (?) and proceeded to lower taxes. And the more money you had the more he lowered your taxes. The justification being that the more money you had the more taxes you paid. Theoretically. But isn't that how it is supposed to work? Anyway I can't fault him for giving his friends a break. That's what politicians do. That's what anyone who wasn't semi-comatose at the time expected him to do.

Scrub got the hand of the government out of your pocket! Ah, no. The small plant administration did not reduce spending to match the lowered revenue. They spent more. Lots more! The biggest deficit and highest national debt in the last two hundred and thirty-one years. The shrubbery has been borrowing massive amounts of cash to finance his slippery war and he has been signing your name on the loan application!

The government hasn't gotten its hand out of your pocket. But instead of grabbing the cash the credit card is now the object of choice. How much cash you got? If a pickpocket took it all how long would you take to recover from the financial blow? What if he left the greenbacks and took the plastic instead? Would you say, "What a relief. Who ever it was just took these worthless pieces of plastic." No you would be in a panic. Calling all over town in a desperate attempt to cut off the lines of credit before serious harm could be done to your credit rating and your reputation.

We, the citizens of the United States of America, should be on the phone right now trying to put a stop to this delusional sneak thief, treating his well lubricated friends to a banquet full of riches, and stamping the bills, "To be paid by U.S. Taxpayer and descendants."

"Interest due."

OWL

Aug. 31, 2007


Sunday, August 26, 2007

Stretch marks

Gardening how-to books will tell you how to avoid having your ripe tomatoes split open. Don't give them to much water. So I'm out there looking through the fence at these big yellow tomatoes with large crisscrossing splits on the stem end and thinking, "Why?" Why would I want to avoid that? The big X on top means the tomato is bursting with juicy delicious juiciness. Literally! I like my tomatoes plump and juicy. If I were growing them for the farmers market or to enter into the county fair, trying for that blue ribbon, that would be different. Looks would be my top concern. But I grow them to eat or to share with friends. It's what's inside that counts.

I like my woman juicy too.

Plant breeders have done an amazing job modifying the traits of fruits and vegetables. Modern field tomatoes all ripen at the same time, are firm enough to be picked, processed and packaged by automated machinery and arrive at market absolutely free of blemish. Or taste. When sliced onto a burger they are guaranteed not to drip on your hand painted silk tie. Nice.

Fashion magazines, television and the miracle of modern medicine have done as much for today's woman. Deprived of nutrition they arrive at market "picture perfect". Looking as if they were raised on a commercial farm. Firm enough for handling by automated machinery. And about as comfortable as concrete couch. Any hint of plumpness has been strategically placed with skill of a surgeons hand and frankly appears out of place.

I think I'll go water the tomato.

OWL

August 26, 2007

Thursday, August 23, 2007

herpetology

There is a sticker on the back of my car in the shape of a fat little lizard. Written across it in big letters is "GoNewt". It is very distinctive, if you see me in traffic give a honk. I won't know why you're honking and I'll think you're just being rude. Honk anyway.

I did not know what the sticker meant when I put it on the car. When I came up with the idea for the sticker, I did not know what it meant. I made it and put it on the car and began thinking about it. The sticker is one of a kind, hand made, original, like no other.

I am the newt. The meaning is now clear. It is an ever present reminder to be myself. To express myself, creatively and honestly. Follow my instinct, impulse and intelligence. Rage against the prepackaged pablum of modern consumerism, the mental void offered by party politics and the soulless spirituality of religion reduced to aphorism.

More than ever I feel the need to not be bound by convention, tradition, expectation or ideology. I pick things up and look at them. Rocks, bugs, vegetables, ideas and dogma. I turn them over in my hand and in my mind trying determine if they are solid, palatable, fresh and sound or just so much recycled dirt pressed together and dried in an Easy-Bake oven.

What have we found here? Inspiration or rote repetition of tired old adages strung together like pizza sauce? Ever mindful of my mouth and of my opinions I vow to be ever more vigilant to ensure that what I say and what I believe comes from within after a serious examination of the facts. What? Oh well. Anyway less concern for how society expects me to look and more focus on shaping my own identity.

My recent decision to wear the company supplied shirts at work everyday, despite the fact that they are not required, has me wondering if my individuality is being swallowed up by the corporate whale.

Nah, I'm just tight.

OWL

August, 23 2007

Sunday, August 19, 2007

Call me Ishmael

When I was younger I began to feel uneasy about seeing lions in cages being made to jump through hoops. Proud animals being humiliated, having whips cracked in their faces, in front of huge noisy crowds of human beings. Imagine Mufasa jumping through hoops. Darth Vader would not be pleased. Then marine animal parks became popular, my uneasiness turned to revulsion. Dolphins may well be the most intelligent beings on the planet. Here they are doing tricks, "Speak", "Fetch", "Rollover". "Goodboy, have a dead fish."

Animal rights activist began to protest the capture, captivity and treatment of marine mammals. I had to concur. Those who made their living training and exhibiting other species made two arguments. It allows us to study these important relatives of the human race. Maybe that would justify holding them indefinitely without formal charges. And "they enjoy doing tricks."

I had a friend, we'll call him DoorMatt. Everyone else did. Minor infractions resulted in a short term of incarceration for my young acquaintance. I saw him in the park one day with a few of his new found friends. Those who were well mannered and house broken had been brought out to do a little work on behalf of the public. Cutting the grass and raking up leaves, etc. DoorMatt was picking up trash and having a very good time of it. Odd, I had never before seen him bend at the waist to retrieve discarded waste paper. The other men exhibited an unusually keen interest in the tasks they were assigned. Unusual for guys whose normal attitude was, "@#$% the hedges, I'm watching the game. Get me another beer."

The higher primates when put into cages will take a sudden liking to simple and demeaning tasks if it allows them a break from the mind numbing monotony of cellular life. Most of the felons I know would drop the brooms and quickly pack their travel kits if the door were inadvertently left unsecured. Why should cetaceans be any different? Some dolphins if let into the wild will find their way back unaccompanied. So will some inmates, they have been "institutionalized". It's not pretty.

Go right ahead. Take my friend Flipper, put him in a tank, train him like a dog to do back flips for frozen mackerel in front of screaming crowds of humans, with their popcorn and cotton candy and hot dogs, at forty bucks a pop. But don't insult my intelligence, or his, by saying, "They enjoy doing tricks!"

OWL

August 20, 2007

Saturday, August 18, 2007

Yes Virginia, there is a Santa Claus

Rachel was beautiful. Pale skin framed by dark hair in an unusual style. Red lipstick enhancing the expression of sadness on her full lips and the look of longing in her dark eyes. A look befitting a young woman unsure of her own past. The cigarette in her right hand highlighted the tragic nature of her existence. It was the perfect prop.

In the movies smoking did not cause lung cancer. Or bad breath. The ashtrays were never full of butts, they usually weren't there at all. Tossing a lit cigarette out the window or grinding it out on someone's fried egg was a statement. Smoke didn't get in your eye. When the heroine smoked it was part of her character development. If she was glamorous the long thin cigarette holder made her more so. Strong independent women lit their own cigarettes and bad girls spoke with a cigarette dangling from the side of the mouth. Prostitutes smoked during sex. It was a fantasy world. The leading lady didn't cough for fifteen minutes in the morning.

The bullets were all blanks, the blood was really corn syrup. The castle was a mere facade and the Emerald City was a sound set. Actresses had unhappy childhoods and bad marriages. Their designer gowns and expensive jewelry were on loan from the studio in order to promote the latest release. Little girls wanted to grow up and be "just like her".

It is sad, you see them all around town, young attractive women with nice clothes, stylish hairdos, long red nails, lots of make-up and the ever present cigarette. Between the fingers or lips. A half full pack on the table in front of her or protruding from the purse. Often times a lady seems really sexy until she reaches for that fag. Then all the hard work she has done to perfect her appearance, to get the "look", is wasted.

Hollywood lied.

OWL

August 19, 2007

Thursday, August 16, 2007

on account

There has been a disturbing trend in recent elections. Candidates are spending large sums of their own money on campaigns. The amount of money one can donate to a campaign is limited by law. Unless it is your own campaign and then you are only limited by your bank account, personal portfolio or what you have stuffed in the mattress. If it was just a matter of wealthy people spending small, or large, fortunes to buy public office I would not be so concerned. But the real situation is a bit more complicated and a lot more insidious.

In many cases these men and woman do not literally "spend" the money used in their campaign. They form a campaign committee and then loan money to the committee. If they lose the election the committee folds like the perverse deck of cards and the candidate is out the money. His loss. But if he or she wins the committee continues to take donations in order to pay off its debts.

Persons of privilege finance their own campaigns and contributors then give to the winners! Its like going to the track and placing your bet when the race is over. The two thousand dollar a plate players can back a winner every time. This makes it hard for a citizen who is not sitting on humongous piles of filthy lucre to come out on top in the election lottery. It was hard for working class penises to win back in the day when, if you told a wild enough lie or made the right deal, you could accept huge gifts from those who were gullible or slithy. But you didn't have to be rich, you just needed rich friends. Today having personal means is a requirement for anyone who wants to seriously compete in the race.

Campaign reform has "raised the bar".

OWL

August 16, 2006

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

Noah good place to eat?

Back when I was in school teacher often said, "If you don't know what a word means look it up!" The other students would roll their eyes and yawn enthusiastically. I thought it was good advice but didn't follow it until later in life when I started reading a wider variety of material. Stuff that wasn't in the curriculum. Psychology, physics, non-sense poetry, case studies in deviant sexual behavior, the usual subjects of keen interest to anti-social loners like myself. Anti-social loner" has acquired some unattractive connotations of late, I prefer "intellectual isolationist". Some of the stuff I read had unfamiliar terms on every line. Milton used words I've seen nowhere else except maybe the Harvard Lampoon. And when you're reading non-sense you're never sure if a word is a word. But I really wanted to understand what I was reading so I began to look things up. I haven't looked back.

The "net" has made the process so much easier, particularly considering the limited depth of your average home dictionary. I had to write down a list of unknowns and look them of in the "big dick" at the library. Very time consuming. Now I just type terms into Google, Wikipedia or onelook.com and out comes a wealth of information. IC.

My son has adopted many of the traits of his fraternal generative unit. Don't talk much. Like most parents I've tried to teach my son various lessons on biological processes, the totality of physical existence and whatever else there may be out there. Because of his uncommunicativeness sometimes it is hard to tell what, if anything, he is learning. I put stuff in one aural opening and nothing comes out. Anywhere. I found Stephen Hawking's essays illuminating in respect to raising teenagers.

DW often reads over my shoulder and sometimes asks, "what's that mean?" Even if I know the answer I tend to do a search, hopping that he will learn to do so as well. Most recently I was doing some research on the Constitution and DW asked, "What are Letters of Marque?" I thought I knew the answer but it seemed a strange privilege for the Founding Fathers to grant to Congress. So I onelooked. I was right. DW pointed out that it was the 18th century.

A few days ago I sat down here (at the keyboard) and found that one of the open windows was a Google search of the word "tithe". I had used the word in one of my posts. Misses B. knows what the word means. That leaves DW. I felt the pride of parenthood.

OWL

August 15, 2007

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

I have two pair

God exist. Or god doesn't exist. There is nothing you or I can do or say that will change that. Or maybe it is both ways, God exist and god does not exist. Maybe the universe is that bizarre.

Certainly much of what I have heard about the creator of all things would support the idea of God having a dual nature. God is all forgiving. If you do not accept Jesus as your personal savior you will not be on the guest list in His lifetime. God is a loving god. He allows little children to suffer and computers to malfunction. God is omnipotent. It is important that you do God's work. Prayer always works, except when it is not God's will. There is one God and they are the Son, the Father and the Holy Ghost.

When the size of my brain is compared to the size of the universe my brain comes up short. Every time. I cannot possibly comprehend God so if I am unable to understand all I have been told then that is not a problem.

Much of what I have learned about the nature of physical reality supports the concept of duality. Back in the early part of the twentieth century scientist studying the electron, the elementary particle that carries the negative charge, made an astounding discovery. The electron could be spread out like a wave and thus be in two places at once. Or it could be in one place, like the period on the of this sentence. What made the difference, why did one electron act like a particle and another behave like a wave? Well it turns out it all depended on whether or not it was being observed. If you measured it, it was a particle. If you didn't measure it, it was a wave.

Weird huh? And very droll. That's a basic humanoid defense mechanism, people quickly get bored with things they can't understand. Keeps the brain from getting stuck in endless loops and going blue screen. A lot of my friends felt like that in Algebra. I get that way listening to political speeches.

So maybe God is and god isn't. Perhaps there is one God and only one God. And a lot of other gods besides. "Thou shalt have no other Gods before me." Seems to leave open the possibility of multiple personalities in charge of creating a scene. Many people feel they have a right to believe in their God. And if you want to believe in a god that's OK with them, you can believe in their God too.

If the nature of an elementary particle can depend on weather or not you are looking at it then maybe the nature of God depends on what you believe. The universe could be that weird. The all powerful maker of all things exist because you feel his presence. Bishop Berkeley, the 18th century Irish philosopher, proved the existence of God by stating that things have substance only if they are observed. Therefore things, such as a rock or tree, would cease to exist once you stopped looking at them if it wasn't for the fact that they are still being observed by the mind of God. Why didn't he just say they wouldn't be there in the first place if God wasn't around to make them out of Pixie Dust.

And if I am emotionally deficient and unable to "know in my heart" that a loving, intelligent, rational being is the unseen force behind water lilies, the passing of the seasons, the human eye and polio, the full moon and napalm, Easter bunnies and birth defects, well then maybe he isn't there.

Here is the onion. If I am willing to admit that your God exist will you allow than my god may be popular fiction?

OWL

August 14, 2007

Saturday, August 11, 2007

OMG

FGM: Female Genital Mutilation.

If you're squeamish you might want to skip this one.

Female genital mutilation, also known as female circumcision or female genital cutting, is a practice of removing the clitoral hood, clitoris, parts of the labia minora and labia majora or scraping the skin from the genital area of young girls. It is routinely done is some parts of Africa and Arabia for a variety of reasons including prevention of disease, preservation of virginity and social expectation. Many people consider the practice barbaric and are trying pass legislation outlawing FGM and to change social attitudes toward it.In order to avoid offending anyone the United Nations prefers to use the term Female Genital Cutting. I didn't understand that at first. Then I realised that you might be offended if I termed what you had done to your child as "Male Genital Mutilation" and I wouldn't want to offend you.

Male circumcision, practised in Muslim countries, the United States, the Philippines, South Korea, and Israel involves removal of some or all of the prepuce (foreskin) of the penis and is usually performed shortly after birth. The prevention of disease is the reason most often sited for circumcision here in the US, religious commandment is cited among Jewish and Muslim peoples. Those who claim it is important for health reasons have been unable to point to statistics showing a greater incidence of disease in Europe or other parts of the world where male circumcision in not routinely performed. The American Academy of Paediatrics found both potential benefits and risks in infant circumcision. It felt that there was insufficient data to recommend routine neonatal circumcision. The American Medical Association supports that view. Studies linking male circumcision to a lower incidence of HIV and HPV infection are in dispute. Some people in this country seem to be unaware that the practice is not universal and is in fact not done by the majority of the world's peoples.

My son is not circumcised. When the subject came up in conversation one woman told me "It is important for health reasons". It was obvious from her tone of voice that she knew this to be true, it was a proven fact. This may have been true when she and the world were young, before the introduction of safe and effective antiseptics and antibiotics. Another woman told me she would have done it "so that he fits in". That would be a wonderful message to send to a child, it is so important to "fit in" that cutting off bits of skin from your most sensitive area is appropriate. In this day of tattooing, body piercing and unprotected sex with users of non-prescription drugs "fitting in" is given quite enough good press, thank you very much.

Doctors have been quoted as saying "it doesn't hurt them that much!" Well doc give me the needle nose pliers and a bit of broken glass, we'll see about that. A short description of the operation courtesy of Wikipedia: With a Gomco clamp, a section of skin is first crushed with a hemostat then slit with scissors. The foreskin is drawn over the bell shaped portion of the clamp and inserted through a hole in the base of the clamp and the clamp is tightened, "crushing the foreskin between the bell and the base plate." The crushing limits bleeding (provides hemostasis). While the flared bottom of the bell fits tightly against the hole of the base plate, the foreskin is then cut away with a scalpel from above the base plate.

Sounds relatively painless as long as you are not on the receiving end.

There are many things that people in this society and elsewhere do without really understanding why they do it. Other than "it's tradition". Why kiss under the mistletoe? How come Holly is used as a Christmas decoration, that is said to have been started by the Egyptians. Why do men and now women shake hands when introduced? The idea of carrying on a tradition is a good enough reason to paint Easter eggs in the spring and set off fireworks on the Fourth of July. When it comes to cutting and permanently altering the body of another human being, one who cannot speak for himself, the reasons for doing so need to be carefully reexamined before the act is committed. EVERY TIME!

I am circumcised. Does that bother me? Not really. Do I think it is a barbaric practice that should be outlawed in civilised parts of the world? No. Why am I banging on about the subject here?

It disturbs me that parents would take a newborn, in perfect health, complete with all the parts he was born with and turn him over to someone to cut bits of skin from his sexual organ, for reasons that are buried in religious antiquity, after giving it less thought than they gave to picking out his name.

OWL

August 11, 2007

Thursday, August 9, 2007

Crappy Denim

I got an e-mail that says a post office was forced to take down posters that said "In God We Trust". This is about the third or fourth time I seen this item. That's OK, the story is true.

A few years ago Misses B. started selling Avon. In order to increase her sales she put her name and phone number on brochures and left them various places around town. Including the local post office. The next day we got a phone call from Rodger the post master. He asked Misses B. politely to remove her brochures and reminded her gently that the post office is not a community bulletin board. There is a prohibition against "depositing or posting of handbills, fliers, pamphlets, signs, posters, placards, or other literature (except official postal and other governmental notices and announcements) in interior public areas on postal premises." You cannot go into a post office a post a "lost cat" flier. Or the "Bill of Rights", the "Magna Carta" or your version of the ten commandments. Neither can I. Fair's fair.

Back 2002 a man in Texas had a bunch of posters printed up and framed and distributed to various public buildings including several post offices. The posters were put up in the POs and a postal supervisor ordered them taken down. The story has been circulating on the web since then. Some people seem to think their rights have been violated, their beliefs discriminated against. And because 86% of the people in this country believe in god that gives them more right to display their beliefs in public than those who don't. The United States of America doesn't work that way. Everybody gets the same rights, majority and minority are treated equal.

In the mean time, because of the public outcry, the United States Postal Service has printed up posters with our national motto "In God We Trust" and installed them in all 38,000 post offices nation wide. I didn't get an e-mail about that. Did you? The federal courts have repeatedly ruled that having "In God We Trust" as our national motto is not a violation of the constitution and that it is acceptable to print that on our currency. That wasn't news worthy enough for an e-mail. Every year from the time my son was in kindergarten until the fifth grade I was obligated to attend a "Christmas Program" where religious songs (prayers set to music) were sung. No one wrote that up and sent it round.

But let a public body decide not to open with a prayer and we never hear the end of it. The latest e-mail I got, which I've seen several times, shows marines with their heads bent in prayer. At lest that's what the e-mail says, for all I know they were looking for some one's lost contact. Then it goes on to quote a spokesman, Lucius Traveler, from the ACLU (American Civil Liberties Union) saying that "These are federal employees, on federal property and on federal time. For them to pray is clearly an establishment of religion, and we must nip this in the bud immediately." When inquires were made the ACLU denied any knowledge of a Mr. Traveler. That is just like something the ACLU would do. The e-mail goes on to quote Colonel Jack Fessender, speaking for the Commandant of the Corps saying (cleaned up a bit), "Screw the ACLU." When inquires were made the USMC (United States Marine Corps) denied any knowledge of a Colonel Jack Fessender. That is just like something the USMC would do.

People in this country, school administrators, city and county officials and the general public, are beginning to erroneously believe that "God" is not allowed in public places. So with an excess of caution they rule against the use of the word "god" at school functions or public meetings. And when they do the e-mail goes round with "God-Banned" in real big letters at the top.

Every session of congress opens with a prayer. As has every graduation ceremony I've ever been to. The city council in the small town where I live has voted to spend $800 to post "In God We Trust" in the council chambers, no one has filed suit. In my readings on the web I often see stories where someone has protested the use of the word "god" and was summarily overruled by the powers that be. Those stories don't get forwarded. But made up stories about the ACLU protesting prayer have a half-life of like forever.

This leads to the impression that although those who believe in god are a majority in this country they are powerless against an atheistic minority. If christians want people to believe they have the right to use the word "god" they should spread the stories that show that right being upheld, by the courts, by public officials and by the people themselves. Seize the day!

Somewhere in a darkened room, hunched over a keyboard, with wide eyes reflecting the light of the World Wide Web, a heretic is grinning.

OWL

August 9, 2007

Saturday, August 4, 2007

that's the way it's supposed to be

Imprinting, in psychology, is a process by which we learn things rapidly at particular stages of life. Often the things we learn in this way are life long lessons. It becomes very hard to unlearn something that has been imprinted in our memory, even when negative consequences result from acting on it. Birds and other animals imprint their parents at birth. They learn what mommy and daddy look like and then will follow faithfully wherever they lead. If no parent is available they choose another animal, a human being or even an inanimate object as a surrogate. Human babies begin to recognise their parents voices while still in the womb. The bonding of a mother to her newborn may involve the same type of learning.

Sexual imprinting occurs during a young persons first sexual experiences. The age, sex and appearance of a persons first partner can become important parts of their sexual make up. Often they will continue to seek out similar partners for the rest of their lives. Some men are only interested only in skinny blonds, I knew a woman who was turned on by men with red hair. Not just the characteristics of your partner can be imprinted. What they are wearing, the acts performed and what is said during the first few sexual encounters can become part of a persons sexual preferences. Some men are turned on by high heel shoes. Some women like men who play rough. Even the location of an encounter can be imprinted, whether it is a seedy motel room or the back seat of a Chevy Impala. So powerful is this imprinting that certain stimuli are not just preferred but are absolutely necessary for arousal (read "erection" in men), pleasurable sex and orgasm. An aspect of a first experience is more likely to be imprinted if that aspect adds to the thrill and excitement of the moment.

Human beings get excited when they think they are doing something socially unacceptable or morally wrong. The adrenaline starts flowing, the heart beats faster, and the senses are heightened. Our culture offers a panorama of sexual taboos. There are rules against sex outside of marriage, oral and anal sex, group sex, touching the genitals and sex for pleasure. Having sex before you are 18 is "bad" and if your partner is under 18 it is a crime. Even looking a another person's unclothed body is considered a sin. So it is no surprise that many of us felt we were doing something wrong our first time. Not that we were awkward at sex, every one feels like that, but that we doing exactly what we were taught not to do.

This leads to a paradox if someone believes that they are committing a great sin during the first time they have sex or that there will serious consequences if they are caught. The feeling of "being bad" becomes a prerequisite part of "good sex". Once they become a married adult sex is no longer wrong and it is no longer satisfying. In order to recreate the thrill of that first time a person will be driven to go outside of the limits of acceptable behavior. Adultery, multiple partners, unsafe sex, sex in public places, and "deviant" sexual practices such as bondage, sado-masochism, voyeurism and homosexual acts are the only way for some people to become aroused and achieve orgasm.

Religious and social mores that label certain aspects of sex as "wrong" end up driving us to have sex in a way that is unhealthy, dangerous or to our own detriment. Leading to the break-up of marriage, the spreading of disease and social maladjustment, bringing harm to ourselves, our families and to society as a whole.

OWL

August 4, 2007

Monday, July 30, 2007

The god of my fathers

Your children's teacher is not allowed to lead them in prayer and now some people want to take the words "under God" out of the Pledge of Allegiance. The ten commandments have been removed from the court house and pubic money can not be used in any way that might promote a particular religion. Some businesses are instructing their employees to say "Happy Holidays" instead of "Merry Christmas". "God" is being forced out of the schools, out of government and into the back rooms of faith oriented community gathering centers. What we used to call "churches". How can this be?

"Christian men and women - on Christian principles - founded this nation, and this is clearly documented". That's what the emails says and I believe it. Something has gone very wrong. Who can we hold accountable for this corruption of of our country's character. Lets round up the usual suspects...

Bleeding Heart Liberals: They're the ones that think health care should be free, want to make sure everyone is fed and don't respect national borders. Bunch of subversive nut-jobs. They used to crucify people like that.

ACLU: American Civil Liberties Union. This group tries protect the rights granted by the Constitution of the United States of America and they don't care who gets hurt in the process.

The Atheist led by Madalyn Murray O'Hair: According to the email I get Ms O'Hair managed to get Touched by an Angel cancelled and has recently filed a lawsuit which will force the removal of the word "god" from all television and radio broadcast. So vitriolic is her hatred of religion that she continues her self appointed crusade unabated dispite having died ten years ago.

Activist Judges: Federal Judges are not elected by the people. The people elect the president, who nominates judges, and the senate who confirms the nominations. So the decisions made by the courts in no way reflect the will of the people.

Christian Religious Leaders: Their lack of unity has weakened the influence of the church and allowed the flock to be led astray by the main stream media.

Lets look back at the founding fathers for a moment. It was these same men (and women) that enacted the first amendment. Look it up. Christian men and women many of who owned slaves. And at least one, Tomas Jefferson who wrote the Declaration of Independence, fathered children with a slave. Having sex with a woman that you own is rape. Imagine that, the man who gave us "We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness." was a very serious abuser of human rights. Try not to think about this to much, your brain will over heat.

I admire the founding fathers and don't wish to spend words pointing out their moral failings. They were able to put aside vast philosophical and personal differences and work toward a common goal. They created a single government, bringing together people of many faiths, diverse backgrounds and various social and economic status treating them as equals. And did so in a way that has lasted for more than two hundred years. One government for all the people.

By contrast the history of the Christian Church, since Martin Luther nailed his 95 Theses to the church door in the 1500s, has been one of division. Luther created the protestant church and Henry the 8th, wanting a divorce and to keep large sums of money in England away from the Pope, created the church of England. Nice two for one deal. Then came, in no particular order, the Puritans, the Methodist, the Fundamentalist and the Presbyterians. Today in the USA we have the Assembly of God Church, The Pentecostal Church of God, The United Pentecostal Church, The Church of The Nazarene, The Baptist Church and The Southern Baptist Church. There are Evangelical Free Churches, Gospel Churches, Charismatic Churches and Independent Bible Churches. That is just a fraction of the churches listed in our local phone book. We live in a rural area, the book is less than one inch thick.

Mary Baker Eddy formed the Church of Christ Scientist and Joseph Smith formed the Church of Jesus Christ of Later Day Saints (the Mormons). When the leadership of the Mormon Church decided tax breaks were more important than alternative life styles and banned polygamy the Mormon Fundamentalist broke away.

Who keeps creating these schisms in the church? Well it is not the atheist, they form book clubs. It is not the Easter Sunday/Christmas Eve attendees, they watch football and support the PTA. It is not even the families that sit in the front row and quietly tithe 10%.

The new denominations are always started by the men (and women) who get up on the dais, pound their chest and loudly proclaim "My belief is stronger than your belief." And usually they claim to be taking orders directly from the big man himself. They devise different ceremonies, write different prayers, read different bibles and design different costumes. And they all preach about the one true "god".

But somehow Christians seem to think that if we allowed teacher lead prayer in public schools that all the different sects in the community, county or state would wondrously agree on the proper format for that prayer. And everyone would know the right thing to pray for. We can't agree on the proper way to teach math.

If all the different denominations of christian churches in this country were united there would be no question about "religion" in politics. Only members of that group would have a chance to get elected. And besides the church would have enough money to buy all the candidates wholesale before the election. They're much cheaper before the election. There is a "fire sale" after the election but only on the losers.

This great nation has one government for all the people. If we are to let religion into the government it needs to be a religion for "all the people". Even the democrats, with nine presidential candidates, present a more united front than the Christians.

OWL

July 30, 2007

Monday, June 25, 2007

Going down!

I had been thinking about this subject for a while, wanting to write a blog about it because of the irony of the situation. Irony=funny. So I did a little research on the web. After reading the statistics I don't think this is so funny.

First I googled "fatalities airline US 2006". I found a couple articles referencing the fact that there had been no fatalities on large commercial domestic airline flights in the US for four and a half years as of mid 2006. None. Zero. Zilch. An amazing statistic considering the huge numbers of commercial flights in this country. I would like congratulate the FAA and the airlines for their work in reducing accidents.

Next I googled "fatalities motor vehicle us 2006". What do I find? "Motor vehicle crashes are the leading cause of death for U.S. teens". Forty-two thousand road deaths in the US in 2004. This country has got to get it's priorities straight!


The federal government which regulates air travel in the United States has done a fantastic job making air travel safer. The FAA, Federal Aviation Administration goes to great lengths to investigate every accident involving an aircraft and prevent its recurrence. If an airplane crashes the area is immediately cordoned off and no one, other than emergency personal aiding the injured or fighting fire is allow to touch anything. A team of experts with years of training is flown in and the crash site is gone over with a fine tooth comb. Every piece, no matter how small is collected and cataloged. If necessary the entire plane will be completely reconstructed in a hanger. Even "near misses" are thoroughly investigated and a pilot who inadvertently fails to follow correct procedure will have his licence suspended. A pilot who deliberately breaks the rules faces having his licence permanently revoked. If a mechanical defected is found to be the cause of an indecent all similar planes are grounded until they can be inspected and up graded. As a result airline travel in the US is statistically the safest way to go.


By contrast after an automobile accident tow trucks are immediately dispatched and the wreck cleared away ASAP. Often times the only investigation is done by a policeman, with little or no formal training in accident investigation, taking a statement from the driver. A driver whose negligence caused injury or death might be given a small fine to pay and have his insurance rate go up. The United States of America has one of the highest accident rates in the industrialized world!


Over the last ten years the number of deaths on airlines per one hundred million passenger miles, .002. In motor vehicles .08. You're forty times more likely to die in a car than in an airplane if you travel the same distance in each.


This is crazy! I and just about every American has to get into a car every day. To work, to go to school, to buy food, etc. It is a part of our daily existence. Can you remember the last time a day went by that you didn't have to go some where in a car. I can't. How often does the average American fly? Once or twice a year to go on holiday? So why hasn't this country made an effort to reduce auto accidents.


Sadly it seems that the less likely something is to kill you the more people get excited and want something done about it. Back in 1982 someone put cyanide into capsules of Tylenol, seven people died of cyanide poisoning. Almost over night tamper resistant or tamper evident packaging was introduced. Now virtually all over the counter medications and many other products are sold in "secure" packages. The way an entire industry markets its products was changed because of seven deaths. Product tampering was and still is very rare. West Nile virus which killed one person in California two years ago is on the front page of today's paper.



How many people were killed or maimed before seatbelts became standard in automobiles? And then only because they were required by the federal government. How many more fatalities happened before states made laws requiring their use. And how many people paid stiff fines before they started using them?

What can be done about the high numbers of traffic related deaths. While we may never make driving as safe as flying a mere one percent reduction in accidents would save four hundred lives per year. A twenty-five percent reduction would save ten thousand. First of all we need to change the perception that nothing can or should be done. Driving is an awesome responsibility and should be treated as such. Start with education, drivers education needs to be a part of the curriculum at all schools. A hundred hours on a high tech driving simulator, without a simulated infraction, should be required to get a licence.


Speed limits must be enforced! When everyone is going down the freeway at seventy-five miles an hour and the posted limit is sixty-five people get the impression that traffic laws are some kind of game and the rules are made to be broken. Set reasonable speed limits and impound the first car that exceeds it. Do likewise with other traffic laws. Don't just slap the drivers hand for running a red light or passing on a curve. Take their car away and impose heavy fines to be paid and many more hours on the simulator before the car is returned.


Heaving handed? No, heavy handed is getting broadsided in an intersection. Harsh? No, harsh is when you get a phone call from the Highway Patrol saying a loved one was killed by someone who was doing eighty-five and lost control.


And safe roads must be made a priority for state and local governments. In the county where I live several people have been killed and many injured at an intersection which has been known for years as a hazard because it needs a stoplight.


The light is scheduled for installation some time next year.....


OWL


July 10, 2007







Saturday, June 23, 2007

I get 'em at Costco

Some of my views are quite liberal, but I don't wear the Liberal label. Some of the ideas I believe in were once bulwarks of the republican platform. Smaller government, personal freedom and fiscal responsibility, are all conservative values that have been rejected by the current, Bush, administration. Abortion is not a good thing and should only be performed when necessary. As a society we should concentrate our efforts on preventing unwanted pregnancy through education. Outlawing abortion and forcing women to give birth to children they do not want is draconian and leads to more social problems. Etc, etc, etc.

I am registered to vote as "undeclared" which is the term used here in California. I believe they used to call us independents until some joker started the Independent party. When the "undeclared" party is formed the state will have to find a new name for those of us unfit to be a member of any political party. Unfit due to an irresistible compulsion to form one's own opinions coupled with an innate inability to believe an idea is good just because the person who came up with it belongs to a particular group.

Adhering to a "right wing" belief system is like flying an airplane with only one wing. There is some important stuff on the other side of the isle. I don't group myself with the moderates, taking opinions only from the middle is like flying with no wings at all. And as everyone knows, if your using only the left wing you're doomed to an endless series of loony logical loop-the-loops trying to justify Affirmative Action after years of fighting for equal rights.

You might as well buy your opinions wholesale. It's a lot easier. They come in a big box all wrapped up in tamper free packaging, complete with air tight arguments and emotional buzz words. Ready to wear. Guaranteed. No thinking required. Bumper stickers are an added bonus.

Forming one's own opinions about various issues takes a little more time and effort. Some light reading is required. A rudimentary knowledge of logical operations, (and, or, not), is helpful as well as the ability to distinguish fact from fiction. And you have to let yourself be exposed to points of view different from your own. This is something a lot of people have trouble with, opposing ideas scare them. They are afraid they might find out one of their beliefs is wrong. Then they would have to go back through whole bag looking for other "bad apples".

Life is much simpler if you choose to be faithful to an ideology. Who to vote for and what causes to support can be decided on the basis of a few key words or phrases such as moral outrage, patriot, activist, Reganism, out source or homelandish. Determining the strength of a politicians moral character requires only that you count the numbers of times he uses the word "god" in a thirty second sound bite. And once you hear a persons views on one issue you know how he stands on all the important issues of the day. If someone tells you they think abortion should be legal then you know that he doesn't support the troops. Anyone that wants to close the border will desire to make tax cuts for the wealthy permanent. Once you put yourself in a box and label it (conservative, democrat, boyscout or homophobic) it becomes automatic to stick everyone else in a box and label them (religious fanatic, capitalist pig, sexual deviant or litterbug).

I posted a blog (Papers? May 22, 2007) expressing dismay that citizens of The United States of America are having to prove they are citizens in order to go about their business. Someone identifying themself as garficher posted a comment attacking my stance and implying that I must think illegal immigrants should be afforded equal protection under the law. My post had nothing to do with illegal immigration and did not mention the subject at all. How this person got from my desire to keep the rights I grew up with to wanting to shelter criminals is beyond me. I guess the fact I didn't fit into a regular shaped box was to much for them to get their pre-loaded mind around. They asked the question, "Should we allow the various illegal aliens who are muggers, gang-bangers and father rapers to stay when we catch them?"

I have a wife and child, father rapers have got to go.

OWL

June 23, 2007

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

the road

The road runs nearly east to west, rising somewhat as you travel east, almost straight and level with only a few dips and gentle curves. To the south grass land rises up to a line of hills parallel to the road. The road forks and the southern road goes around the eastern end of the hills and then up to their summit where there are a few scattered houses. The northern fork crosses the valley south to north and forks again. The east fork leads up a very steep mountain and over a high pass to places unknown. The road now skirts a line of hills on the west. Another fork to the east runs down into a valley and to a small town who's residents are ignorant and xenophobic. Past the town a small stream runs down out of the hills.


Near the west end of the road sits the house. It has two or three stories but I am familiar with only the ground floor. An elderly lady may inhabit the upper rooms of the house, no one ever sees her. Behind the house is a large back yard with a few trees and dry weeds. A tall wooden fence forms the western boundary of the lot. Beyond that is an abandoned complex of buildings whose original purpose in unknown. There are machine shops, fuel tanks, old vehicles and other signs of industry. On the southern side there are large partially collapsed underground rooms.


To the north of the house there is a lawn bordered by a white picket fence. A step hill, covered with brush and scrub oaks, sits beyond the fence. Near the top, about an hours walk from the house at the back of a flat area is a cave carved out of the natural limestone. To the east of the house sits a ravine also covered with brush, scrub oaks and dry weeds. At the edge of the ravine is a small travel trailer that has some of my collected "stuff" in it that needs to be moved. Past the ravine are some hills and then a little town. A trail leads through the hills to the college.

This is the landscape of my dreams. Many of them are set in one of these areas. Some of them have emotional meanings going back to my early childhood. I might share those meanings with Black-eyed Susan. Why am I sharing these images here?

Why did early hunters paint on cave walls? Why do kids mark walls with spray paint? Why do politicians give long speeches? Why is there an American flag on the moon?

The Internet is modern man's cave. We sit in darkened rooms throughout the night, basking in the warm glow of the computer screen, our shadows looming up behind us, pulling hope and fear from the recesses of the subconscious and posting them on the virtual wall in a vain attempt to gain power over them by giving them substance and permanence.

OWL

June 19, 2007

Sunday, June 10, 2007

You should be in pictures

I admit it I'm prejudiced against a certain type of people. Actors. Men and women who act for a living. Can't stand to be around them. I don't even care for those who appear in community theater in their spare time. I not going to say that the world would be better off without them, they provide us with entertainment. A little distraction and maybe enlightenment on a Saturday night. But do we have have to let them commingle with normal folks?

Back in Shakespeare's day actors were shunned. Decent people didn't associate with the low life itinerant scum that traveled from town to town putting on plays which appealed to mankind's baser instincts. So bad was the common perception of the acting profession that women were not allow to join the troupe.

Think about what it is that actors do. What makes someone a good actor. You have to be able to put on make-up. Nothing wrong with that. Getting in and out out various costumes quickly, and looking good in them comes in handy. That's OK, we all like to dress up now and then. And it is necessary to be able to remember your lines. Having a good memory is wonderful thing. So what is about actors that just turns my stomach?

Their seemingly innate ability to make you believe that how they feel is different than what they really feel. A great actor can convince you he hasn't a care in the world when in reality his stomach is all knotted up because it is opening night and he thinks the play is going to flop. A good actress will appear to be so in love with her leading man even though she really thinks he is a disgusting drunken slobbering pervert. He probably is. Acting is deception at the deepest possible level. The falsification of emotion.

Most actors are very good at it because they do it all the time. They're always on. Either they learned at a very early age that they could get whatever they wanted by "pretending" or they detest themselves so much they spend their entire lives trying to be somebody else. I don't trust them.

Remember when you were growing up it was always the kids who were good actors that were little brats who that got away with everything. They could turn on the charm and convince all the adults that they were little angels. If one scraped a knee you would think he'd been skinned alive the way he would carry on. If some other kid had one of her toys it was suddenly the most precious thing in her toy box. These are the kids who got extra treats and always rode up front (car sick) and got to pick which movie we saw. And when they got their way and the adults weren't looking he or she would look at you and stick out their tongue. Naa Naa Naa....

Many actors are now entering politics. The fine reputation of that noble profession for integrity and honesty has suffered accordingly.

Maybe the real reason I don't like actors is because I am so shy and don't draw a lot of attention to myself. An actor comes into the room and blam, immediately everyone is watching them and listening to their every word. They are the center of attention.

They do this by pretending to be someone they are not.

OWL

June 10, 2007

Friday, June 8, 2007

I'm really losing it

Over the past few years there has been a lot of controversy locally about whether or not to allow "big box" stores into our little community. Some people think the huge retail chain outlets will destroy our small town atmosphere. Others want the convenience and savings that can only be found in a building with seven million square feet stacked floor to ceiling with discounted merchandise from every third world country in the solar system.

This is from the local news this morning, quoting our city administrator, siting a study made two years ago, "the city and the county have each lost $414,000 per year in sales tax revenue by not having Lowe's in the community."

Public officials say this kind of thing all the time. "We are losing money." By "we" they mean whatever government entity they work for. But it is the definition of "losing" that is of real interest. It means there is money out there that could be collected with a new tax or fee or regulation or permit or whatever. In this case it alludes to the fact that more taxes could be assessed if this development were allowed to go forward. How is that losing? Losing almost never means they had the money and it disappeared or was wasted due to bumbling incompetence and criminal negligence.

Whatever their title, city administrator, tax collector, treasurer, chief petty parking enforcement dude or purveyor of the public trust, these people seem to think they have a right to our money. If there is a way to get more of it and they are not doing so, well then, "we are losing money". And the people better wake up and put pressure on their leaders to right this wrong being done to them!

It's our money.....

OWL

June 7, 2007

Wednesday, June 6, 2007

I learned it on PBS

Back in the seventies PBS, the Public Broadcasting System, was a fetid backwater running old episodes of Monty Python, subsisting on government grants and the meager donations collected in their endless fund raising drives. Bitter about their marginal existence the network lased out viciously against the abuses of corporate America, exposing the unsavory practices of Big Oil, Big Business and Big Campaign Contributions. The news and documentaries on PBS tended to be very critical of the status quo.

Something had to be done. Not wanting to be unduly influenced by corporate sponsors PBS refused take money in exchange for advertising time on their network. So instead Mobile Oil Corporation had a brilliant idea. Mobile gave PBS millions of dollars to produce Masterpiece Theater. Other big companies followed suit. PBS began to move up in the world. Higher production values meant more viewers. More viewers brought an increase in the donations and public support equals larger grants from the feds. A steady income can be addictive.

Now PBS gets major funding from "advertisers" in the form of acknowledged sponsorship of various programs. Utterly dependent on the oil/money pipeline the executives at our public television network have silenced their editorial staff. Mission accomplished!

World governments could learn a lesson here. For as long as I can remember the standard practice in international politics has been to refuse foreign aid to countries whose leaders were not playing by the rules, to ban trade with them and cut off diplomatic relations. Works real good. A half century of this tactic and Cuba's Fidel Castro is still in charge. The isolation imposed has just served to consolidate the power of the communist regime.

Maybe they should try the other way round? El Presidente' cancels free elections, give him a nice humanitarian package. Socialist government violates human rights make them a preferred trading partner. Lavish money on 'em. Throw large piles of cold hard cash in their direction. No strings attached, no conditions, nothing asked in return.

Not only will the rulers benefit but according to the theory of "trickle down economics" the standard of living enjoyed by the peasants will go up as well. And when everyone gets dependent on your largess then you start asking for small "concessions". They won't be able to refuse. Then add a few "conditions". Sweeten the pot with a free trade agreement and poof in a few short years you're telling them how to run a country. They have no choice but to become a democracy.

Mission accomplished.

OWL

June 6, 2007